As the title of this blog says losing weight is 98% mental and 2% eating right and exercising. Please note: I did no scientific research to come up with those numbers, I just pulled them out my bum but they are 100% accurate.
Tomorrow I am going back to Weight Watchers with my head held in shame. What a fool I have been thinking I could do this on my own and for other things. Although, originally quiting WW was more about money than giving up, but once I quit I basically gave up. I tried for about a month back in July to do this on my own, and then realized I'm too weak of the mind to do it all on my own.
In all honesty, I'm still not sure if I'm ready mentally for this. I am not optimistic and as determined as I was when I joined WW in February 2012. I'm torn between no longer wanting to be overweight, to be thin again and not really giving a damn. I've been dealing with depression for a while now and it is really hard to get in the right mind set while depressed.
I don't see the depression going away as long as I'm in as much pain as I am and it keeps getting worse. However, if I don't go back to WW soon, I'm going to put back on all the weight I lost. That's not an exaggeration either. I've put on at least 17 lbs in the last year. 17 lbs (possibly more) in 1 year! Holy crapballs. That's nearly half the weight I had lost!
So as you can see, I really don't have a choice. I need to get this under control before it's too late. I'm just foreseeing a lot more downs than up this time around.
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