Plugging Along

Weight at Start of week (7/19/12): 186.8
  +/- at weigh in 8/2/12 -1.4 lb two week total
 Current weight 8/2/12 185.4

I definitely have my ups and downs and I'm not talking about my weight. Some days I'm thinking I'm on top of my game, others I feel like it's a lost cause. I am down 28.6 lbs, so I'm close to 30. I think when I reach 30 I will feel more empowered.

Had a great meeting today. A woman who started around the same time I did was down 34 lbs and reached her goal. She looks fantastic. While she had less to lose than I do, seeing how happy she was made me want that too.

Of course I'm not starting my week off right. I went and picked up Panda Express for dinner, way too many points. Oh well I'll just have to tighten up the rest of the week. I have to be good the rest of the week. I leave for vacation a week from today. The last thing I need to do is put on weight before vacation.

My plan for vacation is to not stress too much about my points, but not go crazy either. I'm hoping to come back and be up no more than a pound, but I'd prefer to maintain. Well I suppose I'd prefer to lose, but I'm trying to set a realistic goal.

I think the lost cause feeling comes from not being able to exercise. It makes me feel like a failure before I actually fail. I'm losing weight, but as I've said all along, I'm going to get to a point where I will plateau if I don't exercise. That impending doom is my cause for worry and stress.

Still I'm holding on hope that I will be able to start gradually exercising or at least move more. This vacation will be a challenge for me, I'm not going to have the comfort of my bed to stay in all day or near all day. It will be good for me to get away and will hopefully help me not gain weight. I just hope I'm not in above my head.